So I'm really moving by the end of this month.
Where I'm not sure but it is happening. I'll be very happy to rid my life of the weight and negative energy of this house. For so long it has cast a negative shadow on my family and finally I'll be free. Unfortunately I'm having trouble finding a suitable place to live. I'm placing all of my faith in God that within a few days I'll find something...preferably in Brooklyn or the Bronx in an area I wouldn't mind living in, with people that I can tolorate, and with a rent that I can afford.
Please keep me in your prayers.
i am who i am
7:34 PM
| Your Vibe Is Secretly Sexy |
Sexy isn't exactly a word you'd use to describe yourself
But you have a quite allure that certain men feel appealing
You don't need to flaunt your stuff to be sexier
A little more confidence in yourself, and you'll really light up a room!
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I guess that is kinda true. I'm a little skeptical about the place I found. I have to think on it some more and look for some other options.
We spoke on the the IM. He said he was blessed to have me in his life cause I'm always there for him. I cried. I told him I'm blessed to know someone so brave. I've gotta get a package together for him. It is gonna take 3 weeks to gether. Later this week all the Valentine's Day shit will be on sale. I'm not going above and beyond...but I want him to know I care and keep his morale up.
I've gotta get some sleep ...even though we are snowed I've got work in a few hours.
i am who i am
3:41 AM
I hope that he is okay.
I'm really worried.
14 months is a long time.
Especially there...
I'm gonna send him a letter or
SOMETHING next week.
I pray he is gonna be okay.
i am who i am
6:51 PM
I feel like I'm living in DC all over again. I don't like waking up to
something in my room. It will be over soon, but it is taking its toll on me.
I'm moving. I hope I can afford it. I still need a job but I need to move. I'm not sure of the date but within the next few weeks. I feel like I shouldn't even give people my address and should change my number. Honestly I've been thinking of changing my address here, but anyone who is looking for me would know how to find me so what difference does it make?
My mom has been calling me on some BS. I really wish things were different, but they aren't. I just have to do what I have to do for me just like everyone does what they have to do for themselves. It is a shame that I don't know
how to think of myself first. I'm learning but I'm more than 20 years behind on that so excuse me if I make a few mistakes here and there.
I still need a new computer or a monitor to use my laptop with. I think Alissa gave me a site to get one free but I lost it. (So if you know one feel free to clue me in) I hope my new roommate has a computer with high speed internet access. Is that wishing for too much?
I've got a lot going on, in all aspects of my life. Emotionally I'm holding together with the strength of a band-aid. Physically I feel myself deteriorating. I tried to make a GYN appointment with a free/low cost service with no luck. Apparently I have to jump through hoops to be vaginally assaulted by a doctor. Great.
I'm still lusting after the actor. If he let me I'd love him, but he won't so that is the end of that story. I cannot look him in the eye anymore...
Other than all this I cannot complain cause I'm alive and surviving...barely but surviving.
i am who i am
12:54 PM
Take the quiz:
What Orgasm Are You? ( with pics )
Excellent Orgasm
Damn that feels good! Your orgasms make yur legs shaky and make you want more!!
Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook! LOL...Good to know I guess.
I know I've been MIA. I haven't had too much to say. my life is like a broken record or like the movie Groundhog Day... except the only reoccuring character is me. I keep going through the same thing over and over again no matter how much I think I've learned from my mistakes.
In brighter news I may have some place to live. Keep your fingers crossed.
i am who i am
11:54 AM
