HAPPY BIRTHDAY NYC SUBWAY...
You look hella good for 100.


i am who i am
11:34 PM

I just finished watching America's Top Model. I haven't seen it in weeks, but I do try to watch whenever I can. Tyra annoys me most of the time. She is beautiful but something about her rubs me the wrong way. So far my two favorite contestants are Yaya and Toccara. Eva's short ass ( in the model sense) is such a bitch! I hope she goes home soon cause she has a bad atttitude. She better not win.

Speaking of models, I'm supposed to go to a taping of Life and Style tomorrow. They said I'm on a list...last time I went the people on the list got money so I guess I should go. I just wish I had someone to come with me. I need more friends. Friends who can go places.

I'm not going to Homecoming anymore. There is too much shit going on right now for me to go. I really did wanna see my friends and go to the Step Show. I feel like I haven't been keeping my word. I guess everyone understands, but I still feel bad because I wanted to go. I guess there are a life time of Homecomings.

I want to go see Kanye next Friday, but I don't have tickets or any friends who'd wanna go. Things like that are more fun when you are with people. Then again it is Kanye and no one is gonna understand my whole 'thing' with him. I guess I should just keep trying to win and if I win the tickets go to the show. If I did win it would really make up for me not being able to go to Homecoming. Life is so funny I couldn't wait to leave DC now I want to go back...temporarily.

Pray for me cause I need a job and a place to live. For real.


i am who i am
9:18 PM

I need a job and a place to live...all at once and within a month.
Any suggestions?


i am who i am
6:49 PM

Okay this goes out to all my fellow nacho lovers. Thanks to Paula Deen and the damn Food Network I've been craving them all day. (well since last night and then I saw this shit this morning) Damn that Paula Deen, whenever I watch her show I just wanna eat....like a fucking pig. OINK OINK! Along with nachos she made hot dogs with bacon sauteed onions and cheese. Damn her...she wants me to be fat. LOL. I love her and all her damn fatting recipies.

Macho Nachos Recipe courtesy of Paula Deen

Recipe SummaryDifficulty: Easy...(mad easy)
Prep Time: 10 minutes
Cook Time: 7 minutes
Yield: 12 servings ALL FOR IZZO
1 can refried beans
1 large bag white corn tortilla chips
1 medium onion, chopped
1 cup shredded pepper jack
1 jalapeno, sliced crosswise, plus extra for garnish
1 can chili, or your favorite chili recipe
1 cup shredded Cheddar 1 cup sour cream
1 cup green onion, chopped 1 tomato, diced
Have all the prepped ingredients easily accessible to assemble nachos. Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F.
In a small saucepan over low heat, cook refried beans until they are loose enough to spoon onto nachos. On a large ovenproof platter, spread out a layer of tortilla chips and quickly put a teaspoon of hot refried beans on each chip. Working quickly, sprinkle with some onions, jack cheese, and jalapeno slices. Spoon on chili and top that with Cheddar. Repeat this layering process until ingredients are used up. Save some of the jalapeno slices for garnish. Place platter in the oven and bake until cheese has melted, about 5 to 10 minutes. Remove from oven and place on a trivet or heatproof surface. Top nachos with sour cream, green onions, diced tomato and jalapeno slices and serve hot.



Also posted in my LJ


i am who i am
5:57 PM

I haven't been writing because I'm blank.
I'm at a loss for words. I have nothing to say.

They are selling the house. Where am I going? I don't know.

Their reasoning is crazy and it is not working.



i am who i am
1:13 PM

I know that rain serves a very important purpose, but I hate the rain. Yesterday at the internship I had to run errands in the rain. First I had to go to the bank and cash a check on Park and 48th. It was pouring and it took me forever to get a cab. Then when I got back we had Lloyd in the studio. He was interesting in a young girl kinda way. Then I got sent on an infamous hair run. It wasn't that bad though.

On Monday I went to visit Tahira. We went to the Olive Garden and yacked about family. I love her so much. She was the first real friend that I've ever had. She had grown into such a phenomenal woman. Jada grew so much since my birthday. She enjoyed having me there cause I played with her and she laughed at everything I did. She is so adorable. I hope that I have a baby that is cute like that. That is so superficial to say. LOL.

I know I am probably the only person who is very excited about the centennial of the NYC subway.

I'm supposed to be going toHomecoming ... I'm still up in the air on that.


i am who i am
10:10 AM

This week was very crazy. One minute I was crying and the next minute I was estatic. I got my hair braided and I hate it. I was supposed to go see Kanye on Wednesday but I didn't. I couldn't get into the Garcia Girls book so I decided to read What Becomes of the Brokenhearted instead. (Thanks for everyone's reading suggestions I'm going to the library tomorrow some time this coming week so I'll see what goodies I can get my hands on)Well that book inspired me but also depressed me. I don't think I've ever cried so much just from reading a book, (but then again ya'll know I'm sensitive) and for such a multitude of different reasons. It was a good memoir. I think those are the hardest to write because there are so many significant moments in everyone's life.

Now I misses Kanye on Wednesday for a couple of reasons that make no sense to rehash, but I called up the organization I was volunteering for and asked if I could please go to the Thursday show. Now the lady who was in charge said that she'd give me her pass after the Kanye set. I figured I should still take it so that I could see Usher and maybe, just maybe I'd get to see Kanye backstage or something. Usher's show was surprisingly very entertaining. I had one of the best seats in the Garden and he really put in work. His dancers were lacking though. I had a wonderful time and my only complaint was that I was alone. Things like that are always better with your crew. (I don't really have a crew anymore though...pathetic)

I saw Christina Milian backstage. Her blond weave overwhelmed her tiny face and frame. I saw Naomi Campbell too. I thought she would be taller and skinnier but then again her outfit was flowy and I had on boots that make me about 5'4 -5'5. Just as I was about to leave I saw Kanye and his people. I went over to ask him for an autograph but he looked really tired and he said he had to go. I guess I looked sad cause he called me over anyway. (after he looked at the rack) He was very polite gave me a hug and chatted for a while. I think he was hungry so I didn't hold him up too long. It is strange how we always cross paths...okay so I strategically put myself in his path, but I know lots of people who do that and they never even see him far less speak to him. I guess it just wasn't meant to be for them. Maybe one day he'll get tired of 'meeting' me and gimme a job or something. Ahhhh wishfull thinking...but then again who knows what God has in store for me and mi vida loca.

So it turns out my week was okay after all.


i am who i am
1:27 PM

I'm excited today.



i am who i am
10:37 AM

I read this book last week. It was pretty good. Right now I'm reading How the Garcia Girls Lost Their Accents. Anyone have any other book suggestions? My best friend Tahira was talking aboujt starting a book club. I should bring that up to her again.


Has anyone seen the ads for The Biggest Loser? I'm not sure what my take on that show is yet. The premier is on Tuesday so I guess I'll watch it and see what it is like. Is reality TV here to stay?

Happy Columbus Day. Enjoy your day off.


i am who i am
8:43 AM

I doubt anyone noticed that I was even gone. I've haven't been updating because I haven't had anything worthwhile to say. Since I've been gone ...not a damn thing has happened.

Well that is not entirely true. I went to the now imfamous Dave Chappelle Block Party. I didn't stay for the whole thing because I was not feeling well, I got totally soaked and it was poorly organized. After meeting up to get to the secret location and waiting for 3 hours they told us we had to take public transportation. Not so bad but the J train (the first train station that we came to) was running really crazy and it took us another hour to get into Brooklyn. I felt like crap all day and the only reason I even went was because I wanted to see Kanye. Well by the time I got there I'd already missed him and they gave us such a hassel to get in that I left. Yes I knew I was going to miss the Fugees reunion, but I honestly didn't care. I took some pictures though with my cousins phone. Not of the concert mostly of the train. (Everyone knows I have a 'thing' about the subway)

This is me on the way... looking crazy and fat with a fake assed smile on the A train.


This is where I waited forever and a day.


After waiting forever and a day, I attempted to get there by train






That took an eternity but then we finally got there but by that time I was soaked and pissed.


So much for that.

I'm still doing the internship and if you ever listen on Tuesdays you might just hear me laughing in the background or getting yelled at to do something. Wendy is cool and so is Dave. Art though...I can't figure him out yet. Sometimes he like me and sometimes I can't tell. I guess we'll see over time. My only problem is that I feel like I am not doing anything or enough most of the time.

I kinda looking forward to going to Homecoming. (hopefully)I just hope that if I do go this trip is not as bad as the last one was. I still think about my 'friend' everyday and thank God I stopped crying now. I don't think I've ever been that sad about someone who I wasn't in a relationship with. I guess friendships are relationships too. Then again no one has ever pretty much told me I was lying either. In spite of all that I miss my friend. There is always something I want to tell him. Oh well I guess I'll get over it. I know he has.

I cannot promise but I hope to update again soon.



i am who i am
11:06 AM